Hey girls, just wanted to let y'all know I got your messages, thanks for being so present!!!...yesterday afterwards I felt so great and was like man this isn't going to be as
bad as I thought! At least i enjoyed it as long as it lasted. .. y Dani , GRACIAS por quedarse conmigo, ni me di cuenta a que hora me dormi! haha despues tipo 3 amcuando me desperte a tomarme mi medicina y me HARTE de todo que me habias traido jajajajajaja, suuuuper rico!!
So at midnight I woke up in SO much pain =( hannah was sleeping in papa's office and she was super sweet and helped me all night. Casi me muero. hahahah i just remembered, she CARRIED me! The anesthesia and dilauded had worn off so i was being a big baby. now I'm getting a taste of what this is really going to be like. My leg won'tgo straight all the way because my muscles have atrophied...I started therapy today (ALREADY!!!), Elsa, my PT, literally had to drag me out of bed to get me to do te exercises. and after all the stretches and pulling she wanted me to try to walk and I only got one step. ONE. I guess it's just now hitting me that I really am going to have to learn to walk again. i mean, i hobble so that could consist of walking, but i'm talking about walking without tripping or wabbling haha...my balance is waaaay off...guess i should have expected it jajajaja.
So they nailed the femur rod into place, right where the femur
begins below my pelvis and that spot is where the majority of my weight
rests.it's where they nailed it the first time. anyway i dont know if that meant anything to y'all, but it just hurts really bad when i put any weight on my leg....
i know i'm not sounding happy right now, but i am SO thankful the brace is off and I'll finally be able to do more....but today I've just been crying becaise of the pain and am so
overwhelmed.. so that's why i'm crying to you, who else understands better than sisters?
so...I literally have to learn to walk again. that's crazy. I had been told that before, when we began this whole damn process, but i guess i never really believed that it was going to be
like this, so slow and painful....it's going to take months of therapy (every single day !) to gain back my muscle mass and strength. aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh! i just want to be done!! So please pray for me, especially for patience with my body...and i hope you know how your notes and msgs help me so, so much even though I know I am slow at responding to them.
Just one step. I can't believe it.
i miss my seesters!
I mean, I know it's not like right after the accident when I I had to
learn everything over again. plus i i only have one break to heal instead of like 50...so i guess now it's just a question of how fast my body responds to therapy and how fast I can re-train my muscles.
Anyway. That's my update for today! I'm praying that each day i'll get
better and better. Especially since Dr. Chang made me start therapy
already. I had to call him in the middle of an operation to find out
when to start. He (Dr. Chang) is so patient with me.
I miss you all so much. This is so hard. I don't want it to hurt so bad. I want to be done.
I WANT TO DANCE!!
Love y'all!!
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Chela
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