you saw me
yet you turned away
you heard me
but you blocked your ears from truly hearing
you desired something good
but you chased away what was offered
you deny yourself
you deny me
you play pretend
and act as if this is what you want
you convince yourself
of some sort of stability
and in a trust
that does not exist
remembering what once was
you live out a precocious dream
that is now vacant
and cannot be
you chose your path
to walk in it is a must
to grasp what has been lost
futility.
KISS UPON MY NECK
i felt the strongest feeling today
as i layed still beside you.
your breathing became steady
as you contentedly locked your arms around me
your whispers that trailed off into sighs
were sweet
and the kiss youplaced on the back of my neck ~
tender.
but my feelings were not ones of tranquility
nor could my eyes close peacefully.
i layed there ~
choking back questions
i wish i had no right to ask
wondering at the ache inside me,
wishing the hurt could be ignored.
your apology was accepted
your explanation listened to...
yet my understanding remains vague,
my ''why'' echoes
and my unshed tears
silently remind me
of your unsought words
and selfish actions.
my question resounded in my head ~
how do you hurt what you love?
disregard what you esteem?
knowingly trod upon feelings dear?
yes, i lay here wondering,
while you sleep blissfully,
with your arms locked around me.
FOOLED
hopes crashing
dreams deceiving
aspirations set too high
perfect world
oh where did you go?
castles in the air
why do you crumble?
i try and i try
too good to be bad
too bad to be good
hidden
or just not seen?
SIN NOMBRE
through the unsteady days
i seem carefree
at ease
but there is numbing pain
deep deterioration
a broken me
is found
soft comfort calls
my plight
must end.
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