i'm back!!!

so we had hannah's 15th bday party. it was such a blast!! and i was SO happy because i not only wore a dress, found shoes that fit...but i DANCED my booty off:) it was the best ever. i can't even explain how happy it makes me to be able to dance again. i payed for it later, but it was worth it and then some.

so, i have my dance card back, and it's never full....;)

my new quote:)

To fall in love is easy, even to remain in it is not difficult, our human loneliness is cause enough. But it is a hard quest worth making to find a comrade through whose steady presence one becomes steadily the person one desires to be.--Anna Louise Strona

here it is...

Hello Everyone,well, it took me a little longer than i thought to get this thing up. maybe i can blame it on lack of sleep:-P i tried updating the image, but, whatever, letters are letters right?i'm trying to wrap my mind around the thought of writing all my deep, inspirational (haha) thoughts down, but that just doesn't seem to be happening. i think for tonight i'll keep it simple and just tell a little of what i have been doing. i think everytime that i tell someone what is going on with me, the first thing i think of is my recovery journey. perhaps that is because that has been my all,encomapassing mission for the last year and something. i would like to say i am nearing the end, but i know that would be stretching it. instead i just want to let everyone know that i haven't ever been happier or more at peace. i seem to think in terms of 'before' and 'after' since it seems i have been given two different lifetimes in which to live, and this latest one with hopefully much more maturity and anointed SIGHT than i had before. i've learned two things (at least that i can think of this moment). one is that life seriously hurts and i despise it at times, and the other is that life seriously hurts, but makes so much more vivid the beautiful and i can't help but loving it and embracing it once again. right now i am still in therapy and each time i go i come out bouncing (inside at least) because God has truly blessed me with people that have taken it on as their mission to see me better my state and make stronger my physical body. i had previously been so frusterated with the medical system, but now just stand in awe that there are so many with such incredible hearts that work with so many with so little resources. God has given me favor everywhere He sends me and has been orchestrating the meetings and tests and each person i talk to. right now i am in the process of getting vascular and neuro testing done on my right leg (the one that the artery was severed in) because i still have been having such a hard time with my foot and circulation and feeling and pain, etc.etc. without going into the whole story, they are pretty sure i have what is called volkmann's inschemia, which is like the rare after-math of compartment syndrome, which i had when they pumped me with fluids and i swelled up like a whale. it is (or they think) the reason for my toes curling. so we will see what happens with all that. the other thing is that my PT measured my legs and it turns out that my left leg healed a whole inch shorter than the other one. hence the weird walking and pain. i am getting fitted for a lift to even me out and then also for a brace for my other leg to help correct some stuff,like drop foot, and then i don't know yet if there is anything to do for the long term. someone said they'd have to break my leg again. but no thank you. at least not yet. i have to go and get sarah some food....will keep writing later.hugs to everyone,rachel Current Mood: groggyCurrent Music: orishas (cuban)

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