can’t i just
turn away
resist this wrenching
this collapsing
of my
resolution
of my
detachment
of you
my façade is my calm
my entity a myriad of
contradictions
of verifications
of the fallacy
of what
was thought
truth
naked authenticity
a faith
in something whole
it has dissolved.
and i have my heart here
in fragments
exposed
disposed
not for others to see
and believe me broken
nor for you to see
and convince me of a healing
beyond the bounds
of my sanity
love oh so benevolent
to entice and secure
the yearning for consistency
i had yet to procure
was it audacity
was it hope
was it you
was it me
looking for the us
that never was to be
love is gentle
love is kind
ours a twisted replica
that chose to bind
love her
comfort her
honor her
keep her
love him
comfort him
honor him
keep him
speak now or forever hold your peace
peace
deep sweet
an urgency
to fulfill
my longing
a pressing need
to belatedly
release
surrender
assumptions
expectations
know
that there is restoration
reformation
a kind absolution
to this brokenness
that is mine
weary
of this conflict
drained of all resolve
bombarded
by ambiguity
stripped bare
needing to be absolved
can’t i be
what you need
your pillar
your retreat
don’t you see
you far exceed
what you thought
you had to be
to keep me
honor me
comfort me
love me
such a maze
just a haze
where did it go
this love
it has dissolved.
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